Welcome to my first blog post that I have made in years!
As I begin this journey of fundraising to squad lead and blog-posting once again, I want to give you an idea of my intentions with them. I want to take you on a journey of the growth, freedom, and restoration that I have experienced since being home from my first time of being on the World Race. I then want to focus on how and why the Lord called me to this next season. From there I will update you as the Lord prepares my heart for leading and eventually what it looks like to be in the midst of it and all that God is doing in it.
So let us get into it…
Almost 2 years ago now, J Squad returned home from our 9 months of missions with the World Race. This was the most incredible experience that allowed me to see how much bigger God was than I could have ever imagined. I had seen that I put God in a box and put a limit on just how powerful and loving he was. While I returned home with so much more to grow in, I believe God used the World Race to open my eyes on all that God wants to do and can do in the lives of others and my own. My eyes being opened allowed him to walk me through freedom and restoration in the 2-ish years that I have been home.
It all began with my team leader asking me a question in Guatemala. This question was asked the night I had shared my testimony with my team and the night I was re-baptized on October 20, 2022. She asked: “what silenced you”, such a simple and yet life changing question. At that time, I did not know how I would ever find an answer to her question. However, her asking that question was enough for me to see that I never fully understood God’s heart for me and the freedom that he could walk me through. Again, I had put God in a box and limited his power and love for me. When I returned home, the answer was obvious. It was so obvious that I could not believe how long it took me to realize. Recognizing the power of God also comes with recognizing all that the enemy does in our lives to stop us from seeing God’s power. I realized that Satan had filled me with so many lies to the point that it silenced me. It caused me to live a lot of my life in fear of the simplest of things, especially obedience to God. Satan knew that with the knowledge of the power of God and his Holy Spirit, God could use me in incredible ways. I was silenced through fear and lies to keep me from walking in the fullness of God. The Lord showed me this and has since changed my life through the freedom he has shown me.
Don’t be fooled, this is still a journey that I am on today. The enemy will always be waiting to attack. However, the Lord’s voice is louder than ever and is constantly walking with me as I navigate the things that are still scary but are becoming less and less scary. I am not allowing the fear to keep me from all that God wants to do and I will continue to trust God in it. Each step of faith, even though hard at times, leads to so much growth and fruit. Being on the World Race was a time of learning and growing, but I was not yet ready to understand what God wanted for me. Now, as I prepare to leave again, I am ready for everything God has for me and wants to use me and grow me in.
Next, my hope is to talk about where I have been the past two years and how the Lord used that to lead me to his call of squad leading. Thank you for reading and thank you for going on this journey with me. If you feel led to donate, my link is included below.
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