Life has been crazy lately. I’m not used to having so much on my plate. I have never had a huge social life, I haven’t had to work very often, and I have only ever taken dance classes which doesn’t take up much of my time. It seems like since I started my senior year, all of that changed and I have been busier than ever. I put pressure on myself to get perfect grades so that I could get into college and get scholarships. What stressed me out the most was that by October, I still hadn’t applied to any colleges. Originally, my plan was to apply by the end of August. I thought that knowing that I was accepted to a college would take some stress off of me. I am the kind of person to plan everything out. From a single day, to my week, to my life, I tried to plan it all. October was the month everything changed. The plans I thought I had were gone. I felt God calling me another direction by the people he put into my life and the things they would say. Ignoring this feeling helped nothing. There came a point that I finally realized that it wasn’t a phase and his voice wouldn’t just go away over time. I had to ask him what he wanted me to do. I put my plans of going to college on hold because he had a better plan for me.
One of the questions I was asked during my World Race interview was “what do you hope to get out of this trip”. My answer was simple, I want to learn to trust God more. I know that he has a plan for me and a far greater plan than I could ever make for myself. No matter what kind of plan I may write up for myself, God has the ultimate say in what happens. I don’t want to just trust God more when I am fearful or anxious, instead I want to trust him with everything. The good and the bad. When I heard him telling me to go on World Race I knew that I would be putting all of my trust in him in so many ways. I am trusting him to provide the money to be able to go, I am trusting him to keep my team and I safe as we serve, and I am trusting him to help prepare me for my goals after World Race. I want my trust in him to continue to grow, so that when I hear his voice again I won’t have to hesitate. I will say “yes” and go.
Please do me a favor and listen to the song “Available” by Elevation Worship. This has to be my all time favorite worship song because it represents me trusting god and saying yes to him. One of my shirt designs for fundraising says “I am available”. I am making myself available for God and I wanted to be able to show that through my design. So when you see me walking around with this shirt, know that is what it means. (I am hoping to start selling them by February 1st)
